My Cross

At this very moment I am on the edge of depression. Loneliness is killing me. I seek someone to listen to me. No one cares. Through this life I have seeked a good friend but never found one. The only one I think I can talk to is so far away from me. Behind the wall.

I wish I could just break this Damn Wall!
if can only make her love me, if I can only get her to care.

The Hell with what I think. My mind is not right. Not logic. My heart is not straight.
I hurt and bleed. Does it matter, does it not? Who cares? Do I?

her face, she is all think of. Obsession or adoration?
does she like me?

some knife cut through me, actually cut me in 2
who am I? Who r u?

I am you and u r me. I hope that One day we would set each other free.
God! Are you reading this? Cause I hope u do. No one in this world can save me but You.

I hurt and bleed on this side of this wall.
on the other side I hope she wouldn't hurt at all.

God I pray you would listen and hear, look down on my falling tears.
spare me the cross I bear, Free me from my roaming fear.
of the words I can't hear, the she doesn't want me this near.
if she is not for me and I am for her, then why is she to me so dear?

O God see my tear, to my prayer listen and hear.

Love / Friendship

The hardest kind of involvement is to fall in love from one side.
it keeps draining your emotions and arousing your imaginations, drifting you away from reality to a place where you cannot return as smoothly as you came.

I am stuck. In this one side love where she doesn't see me. Where my songs of love are like a noisy TV to her. My roses are like advertisements. My love notes are like newspapers. My tears are like rain. My passionate heart-beats are like drums.
My love is just friendship to her.

Dear, I cannot blame you. I can only blame myself

To the most wonderful

To the most wonderful friend I ever had.
the sweetest, cutest. The one who captured my eyes the first time I saw her.
the one who captured my heart through time. A beautiful person and a lovely heart.

you, were a dream to me. A star that I wanted to reach once but I couldn't. The more we talk together the more I feel I want to spend my whole life with you, for I have never found anyone as half as wonderful as u are, I doubt I ever will. I know you might not read my words as I am writing them. Maybe one day u will, maybe never.

to the one who Life is in her name. If you ever read this you will know.