On that Altar of Obedience..

Sacrifices, the letting go process. The choice I make to confirm my choice and establish my devotion to the destiny I peruse. I have placed a lot on that altar, but never enough. A lot but not all. I know it has to be complete, paid in full or else it would be meaningless. What good is a sacrifice if I only place what I don't care about on that altar? What kind of a choice is it that I make by not eliminating the magnets that pull me in the other direction and wouldn't stop pulling me somewhere I don't choose. Would I sacrifice the bull if I can't let go of the sheep? Would I give up what's of great value to me while I can't give up the nonsense I keep? Shall a thief be entrusted with the stores of gold while his hands still steal the straw? Shall the dishonest be treated as the one who cares about the slightest of the details that really shows his honesty? There is a reason I was given those little tests that people saw as narrow mindedness. There were reasons beyond our shallow human eyes and minds. The one who's honest, is honest; in minor issues as well as major ones. It's either light or darkness. There is no grey zones to the eyes of God. His eyes of justice sees clear and discerns well, much better than anybody. His angle and perspective are the absolute, that which I want to follow and see. It's a long trip up that mountain, my legs are weak and my strength is faint. The way to that altar is nothing but the way of death, my carnal corpse only seeks to escape but my deep soul seeks to step forward. Make my soul stronger, for I know that death is life for the body, while rest is real death of my existence. For the seed has to die to live, creatures have to suffer to bring out offspring, sometimes they have to die for other species to live. A predator's life is what keeps the prey kind from dying out of starvation if they increase in multitude. Shall I ignore the wisdom He placed in nature and life and in His words? Shall I wear that eye band and pretend I am enlightened and intelligent? A genius to myself and others but a fool and a joke to Him who have created me and to life and the laws of existence. I must go up, there where my heart longs, to that place of pain and sacrifice. A moment of pain yet years of joy yet to come. Shed no tears, spill the milk and the honey you gathered for yourself over that altar for they were not to fill you nor make you happy, You will only be happy when you are free. When you drop all that you have carried and cared for, all those sick selfish desires and those decaying possessions. You will only be alive when your wings are strong and your body is light, when you can spread your wings and fly, soar where you belong between those high heavenly clouds, where vision is clear and the joy is endless. The heaven has called your heart a lot, in your visions and dreams. You can almost hear it deep within your heartbeats all the time. Take a step forward, climb up towards that altar. Today is what will bring tomorrow as you saw it in your visions ahead of its time. Now is what will make then be as it should. A drop of blood now is nothing but invested salvation for tomorrow and the days to come. Close those eyes, feel it. The touch of His Spirit of Strength and Might. Hold onto that arm of His, Be strong and He will make you stronger, all you who hope in the LORD.

I have made my choice, I chose You Father and I have placed all on that altar..