All I have become..

Where do you go when you are in pain? Where do you hide when hurt drives you insane? Does it conquer your physical domain? I wish I could be there in this dark cave, sharing you, feeling the same. Beloved, my heart beats off tempo for you. Maybe its not much but that's all I can do. If I can give away my health, strength even my whole life and my very own soul, I shall not hesitate a second. For you to be happy I would give up my own being and vanish into numb inexistence just for you. If I can bear all your pains I would carry it to Calvary. I wish I can be who I wish and do what I can't but I will do what I can even if it wasn't enough, I will try. You are always in my mind and heart that I melt like the ice of the mountain tops at the first heat of spring I glide down the mountains forming pure water streams bringing life to all the forests around but loosing my own existence as I hear that you are not alright. God I am no stone nor metal, my heart tears apart when she is caught up in pain. I feel I want to hold her in my arms till she falls asleep, till she wakes up well. I would feed her on my own health and support her with the essence of life that runs through my own veins. Oh How I wish I would give my very humanity and my visibility and all my dreams to feel her and touch her just to watch over her night and day as a guarding angel. Her smile will be just enough so please my heart. Why do I feel like that? I have become willing to just die for her to live, to cry for her to smile and suffer for her to enjoy. I don't know who I have become. I am just a song for her lips and poetry for her ears. All I am has become is just for her.